I find it important to reflect upon my life every now and then. Just take some time out, sit down, and think about it all. “Is my life going in the direction I want it to? Am I happy with the way things are going? Can I do something about the things I’m not happy about? Why am I not happy?”. These are questions I like to ask my self and use as an evaluation/reflection base.
I also like to think about the successes and achievements I have made so far. I find it important to think through them and truly feel how far I’ve come and to remember where I started from. I like to look to past goals, and not only those I set a month ago, but also those that I set years ago and see what happened to them, and just appreciate how much hard work I put in to get to where I am. Even if there are goals that I haven’t reached yet I find it important to look back at them and see why I didn’t reach them. Maybe I was too ambitious? Maybe I re-evaluated the importance of that particular goal?
This year has been a “roller coaster year” so far. I definitely have had some big ups and some massive dips. I had a knee operation and was off work for six weeks. It was definitely the biggest operation I have ever had (have only had a tonsillectomy, and surgically removed some moles in my skins before).
For a lot of reasons I have recently felt that my life is falling apart. I found out that my fiancée is/was in a lot of debt and in order for him not to end up in some seriously trouble, most of our savings had to go to bail him out from the most pressing debts he had. He is paying it back to us but will take a long time to get it back to where it was. This of course meant that the money that was put aside for our wedding is lost. We are slowly rebuilding our financial situation and I am hoping that it will make us stronger as a couple and that my fiancée will become more careful with money in the future.
Another thing that happened was that my work organisation decided that they need to save money. So, compared to how things were we are before we are awfully understaffed and there is a lot of pressure on us. I haven’t been as happy at work as I used to and being so stretched has really taken a toll on me. A long with this one of my work colleagues died from cancer. She was only 35 and had just got twins…
These reasons along with a few minor mishaps, that wouldn’t have had much effect on me unless these other things wouldn’t have happened, have really put a downer on my mood. However, yesterday I decided that enough was enough and I need to re-evaluate all I’ve got, what I’m working for, and see what I can change to become that happy person I know I deep down inside am. It’s not much of this year left so I will put my energy into having a happy festive period and enjoy the last of 2013. 2014 will become a new beginning where I will have to put down some new ground rules and review my life in more detail. Until then you’ll just have to do with goals for December I’ve put up in the previous post. I’ll give you a picture to admire as well
Me and my Robbo enjoying the festive period :)